♥ Friday, July 23, 2010 ♥
I am missing eu so very badly now. I never thought that it's gonna be this hurtful to be so far away from eu. You used to be there fer me every single day, but now, i just have to accept the fact that im all alone. Pretending that you are here with me all along, is the very least i can do to alleviate this pain. Whats really bothering me now is eu. I've been thinking too much about eu lately. I dont know why, but i can no longer pretend that im strong to face everything. Three months of not hearing from eu really kills me deep inside. I've been wondering alot about eu. All i can say now is that, I HOPE, eu are really doing fine in there. Until now, i am still waiting. Still waiting fer your letter as well as your presence here.
Fasting month is nearing and like any other year before this, i would usually look forward to this month and the next one of course. But sadly to say, i aint looking forward to it anymore this year. Why? 'Boyfriend's not here.' This sentence explains everything, yes everything. :'( I have no other choices left but to get used to his absence during all of my moments of joyness and not forgetting, sadness as well. Baby, please come baack soon. Feels like im dying inside. I need you badly now.. :(
Life ouhhs life, Fate ouhhs fate, Luck ouhhs luck, can eu not be too cruel to me pleasee.? I've been a good girl thruout this year and that i really think i deserve to be happy by now, dont eu think so? Yes, after all it is said that 'Life is never fair', i know. I have to really stuck this into my head and stop wishing that my life would turns out to be like any other fairytales that ive heard before this. *sigh*
Alrights, I cant wait for Os to be over! That's when my mind would be at ease. Thats when i can make it up to all of my friends for the times that we've lost. And that's when i can also earn extra money to buy myself with lots and lots of foods, clothings, accessories and shoooes(!) wheeee~ Okay, i shall end my post here. Plus, Shirahbeylo, IMY hell lot. Okay buhbyee everyone. :D
