♥ Monday, November 29, 2010 ♥
I wish you'd understand how much it hurts to be doing everything all by myself. I wish you'd understand the pain of missing you. I wish you'd understand the sacrifices I've made. I wish you'd understand the loneliness that I felt all this while. I just wish you'd understand everything, EVERYTHING.
I've made a vow to myself last night. I won't visit you anymore. So in other words, you won't be able to see me until you'll be released next year. However, I'm not that cruel ya'know. I'll keep sending you letters, that, I promised. Do you know how much it hurts to be making this kind of promises to myself.? You won't be suffering alone because for sure, I'll have to suffer too. So just know that you're not alone.
Besides, I just want you to feel what I've been feeling all this while. You can do something, something that doesn't require any much effort at all. And for that, I don't think I'm asking too much from you, am I right.? I just need you to speak up, speak up to your own family, that's all!
Don't expect me to do that on your behalf. Ouhhs well, just know that I did try okay . Yes I've tried and all I ever received was disappointment. And again, I ended up hurting. And again, I ended up crying.
I need you to play your part now because I'm on the verge to give up on everything. :( Jyeah, I know it's impossible huh? So the reason why deactiveted my facebook account is because I can't stand looking at my relationship status especially with his name attached to it. Yes i know I'm being childish right now but who gives a fcuk about it.?! Im mad at boyf, really really mad at him. URGH.
